The beach and the carnival. How perfect is that? I’d love to be there right now. With the wind blowing in my face, eating some ice cream and just walking on the beach or running around like a little kid, playing games and riding rides in the carnival.

I went to Discover today and they had the carnival going on there. It was dark outside and while I was walking to my car, the bright lights and ferris wheel and rides and everything…just looked so pretty and so fun. It doesn’t look as great as the picture above, but I really want to go. And in all honestly, I hope you can go with all of us this week. I’m about to text you to tell you about it and I’m really hoping you go. You told me you have feelings for me…but they’re not constant. You go from liking me a lot, to just liking to me, to not knowing how you feel. It goes from one thing to another…but honestly, I rather hear all of that, than to hear that you don’t have any feelings for me. 

Is it pathetic that I’m making up little scenarios of us in my head right now? I’m imagining us at the carnival….sigh. What am I doing…This is so sad. I like you so much. Its almost been over a year. I want to play little games with you at the carnival, ride the ferris wheel with you and just run around and have fun with each other. I want to….somehow just….hold your hand while we’re there too. If its just us two walking and no one else near us, I want to do that. I want to grab your hand and keep it interlocked with mine. I can just imagine you looking at me like “wth”, but I know your not gonna let go…at least I hope you won’t. Your just gonna laugh and smile and mess around with me, like you always do. I hope you can go. I just saw you today and I’ll probably see you tomorrow too, but I miss you already.