June 2011
4 posts
-
And your right there…lingering in the back of my mind, when I thought I had completely erased you…you always find a way back. Always. -
I kind of miss you. hahaha eff why do i miss you all of a sudden.
everyone is so fucking annoying lol why the hell am i home
I can’t believe you made Appa get all pissed off at me for like the first time ever, telling me my curfew is 7 from now on….like….no….are you fucking kidding me. Hell no I’m not coming home at 7 every day. You’re stupid af. hahahahahahaha this is so dumb. Me and you don’t even talk that much anymore. Can we please leave it like that? Go talk to oppa or...
April 2011
24 posts
...
Fuck I got an 86 on my math test …… and my last grade was an 83…. I’m so sad right now. I have an 88 in here. I need a 90, I NEED a 90. I want to spend my summer without hearing crap from my mom for not getting an A….fuck I want the dslr my dad promised me if I got straight a’s….and I want my license….oh my gahd. I’m gonna cry. So much damn...
Its not the same anymore.
I tried today. We were both going to the tennis game, I don’t really know why you were going but you were. I said lets go together, then you threw a sarcastic remark at me. When you were walking to the courts, I walked beside you telling you I’d go with you, you left me and walked back to the guys, so I just stood there, embarrassed and luckily one of my girl friends came up to me and...
I just want you. Thats all really. Grow up a little bit, get your thoughts together and come on, give us a chance. Lets see what happens.
I can't believe I'm writing a post about you.
My baby sister, C- has been talking to me about a guy that she has something with and she told me it reminds her of you and me and the minute she told me about how they met at Lifetime and how hes older than her, I couldn’t help but agree and since then, I can’t lie, you’ve been popping up in my head again, so here goes another long ass post/letter to you, once again.
Its...
About to go read Mice of Men,
idk why, but as I’m about to get off the computer and go read a book in my cozy bed, I thought of you. I wonder if your done reading the Kite Runner. You hate reading so much…haha, I wonder what page your on. I sound pathetic. I just want to talk to you.
-
I know for a fact, you want me to try again. You want me to give you all that attention again, you want me to talk to you first and everything. I have to admit, when it comes to texting and chatting and all those things, you do everything first. I don’t ever do that type of stuff first, but thats just because its me and I feel too burdened to do it when it comes to you. You don’t want...
...
I’m so…blank…so confused. Your not trying and I’m not either. Neither of us are making an effort to talk to each other, when we see each other in person we both act like we don’t see each other until one of us acknowledges each other first, but if we don’t then we both go on acting like we don’t even know each other. Gahd, this is so frustrating. I want to...
Its not there anymore. Theres no point anymore. At least I tried.
I know I say this a lot and I'm pretty sure my...
but I’m losing interest. I don’t feel what I used to feel. I don’t care about being near you and I just don’t want to put in the effort anymore. I think its time for me to just move on, let our relationship/friendship stay where it is as just friends. I have no idea if we’re going to work out the more I think about it and see how distant we’ve become. Your not...
Its like a stupid cycle.
The less I like you, the more you like me.
The more I like you, the less you like me.
This is so frustrating. Why can’t you just give us a chance?
....
I saw you today. You didn’t even acknowledge me. I guess it was one of those days where you only like me as a friend. This sucks.
Maybe...Maybe...Maybe...
I just gave boy advice to J and she was telling me how her feelings for this boy she has a thing with, goes on and off, like a light switch. She told me that her feelings aren’t constant and that she likes him, but she doesn’t at the same time. I told her that, if she really did like him, then she wouldn’t be hesitant, she wouldn’t have these half-hearted feelings for him...
You know what I love?
When we hug and you hug back tighter. I love that, so much.
Last post for the night.
We like each other. I mean…even though your not at a constant state all the time with this whole liking me, you do like me, you have feelings for me…so that means something, right? I have feelings for you and you have feelings for me…so why is it so hard for me to…show you and tell you how I feel about you in the smallest ways? I have enough courage to talk to you and ask...
1 tag
wishlist tehe
Oversized clutches
Flowy blouses
White and baby blue Ralph Lauren button up
Navy blue/white checkered nambang
Couple pair of gladiators + flats
Coral swim suit
Crop tops
Rompers
Spring/Summer dresses
Olive + black skinnys
High waisted shorts
Braided headbands
New Era 59 Vans in Charcoal gray or maroon
Illest lanyard for my car keys;-)
Bright colored clothing
High waisted jean...
I die.
While we were texting late at night, at around 4-5 am, you just randomly told me that you wanted to do something with me, but you wouldn’t tell me what. It bothered me so I kept nagging at you to tell me what you were gonna say, you ended up telling me that you wanted to sleep with me and that you didn’t say it the first time cause it sounded weird. By sleep, you and I both knew...
The beach and the carnival. How perfect is that? I’d love to be there right now. With the wind blowing in my face, eating some ice cream and just walking on the beach or running around like a little kid, playing games and riding rides in the carnival.
I went to Discover today and they had the carnival going on there. It was dark outside and while I was walking to my car, the bright lights...
Finally.
I finally decided to make a “private” Tumblr. I’m gonna fill this blog up with old private posts, my feelings and just everything that goes on in my life that I don’t have enough courage to post on my main Tumblr. Enjoy C:
P.s. If I do follow you, I’d greatly appreciate it if you don’t reblog my posts or anything. It’d be nice to keep this a litto...